sweetlymistaken:

I guess I never really knew what I really wanted. I’ll go with the flow, up till graduation and from there I’ll slowly find a way out. In life, you don’t always get what you want. Don’t always get the person that you really wish you can be with. That’s when “give and take” takes place. And all those sacrifices you did? Sometimes you just cant help it. You’d rather see others being happy than seeing your own happiness. Or for the sake of “friendship”. You’d rather swallow those ego than to be distant from a close friend of yours that you secretly fell in love with… And let other girls take your place and you’d just be there for him as his listening ears. 

It’s crazy. The world is. How it functions these days. I’ll be away in London and then, I’ll figure something out. It’ll be 4 to 5 years down the road, but it’s okay. I’ll be patient. The pain is bottling up. All sorts of pain. Im not running away, I just need space and peace. I’ll be back. 

Yours truly.